Spiritually Awakened or Gone Bananas

Several weeks ago something happened. A gentle shift in my priorities. At the time I didn't think too much about it. It was a Monday morning and my partner had just left for a week long business trip out of the country. I looked at my texts to him that day.

"I'm feeling insanely spiritual and connected right now, it's really beautiful...".

I had sent him with a piece of amethyst for protection. I had never really been into crystals much but my mother had recently developed an affinity for them and sent a bunch to me with details on what their properties and purposes are. I knew that amethyst was supposed to serve as protection, especially to Aries, which we both are, so I sent it with him just to be safe.

SIDE NOTE: A few weeks earlier we had a very scary, could-have-been-life-altering, situation with my brother-in-law & in a fit of panic I decided to meditate with some of the crystals. 10 minutes post meditation the issue was no longer an issue... That in and of itself was enough to cause me to start to consider crystals more seriously.

Either way, my husband responded to that initial text by telling me he took the stone with him to the Pyramids of the Sun & Moon in San Juan Teotihuacán, Mexico to charge it that very morning. The texts continued. "I feel this strong pull to meditate and do a deep yoga session, eat well, drink lots of water and just have quiet time and journaling. It's overwhelming me in the best way. I'm not sure where it's coming from."

The next day I was having a hard time with work. I texted again, complaining but it ended with "I feel so good and calm about it all. I'm feeling this inner peace and awareness about what's important what's not, and this just fucking isn't." This continued and really hasn't stopped.

Fast forward a bit and now I feel like my life has completely changed. I am not going to lie, there was a period of time where I legitimately thought I might be going insane. No joke, full stop. I was concerned. And like anyone my age I aired my concerns to TikTok of all places. A few hours later I hopped back on and was overwhelmed by the amount of traction the post gained. Over a thousand people (I know that's not a lot on TT) had commented on the video, nearly all of them with the kindest, most thoughtful words. Most of them telling me things like "Welcome to the other side!" and "You've started your spiritual awakening, so exciting!"

... I burst into tears.

Initially it was because I was overwhelmed with the amount of love I felt. But then it turned into fear. I looked at the profiles of some of the commenters and they seemed to be a bit... we'll say 'out-there'. I immediately went into hibernation mode. I couldn't decide if this "spiritual awakening" stuff was real and true, or if I really had gone insane and was now going to turn into one of those people that I've always considered to be a little off-their-rocker. But over the next few days I had several women kindly reach out to me on Instagram (my account is linked to my TikTok) to tell me that I wasn't alone or crazy and they began to share their experiences with me.

This was the relief I needed. None of these women seemed insane and they were showing me love and kindness without overwhelming me. I immediately felt like I was able to be open and honest with them about my fears. I can't explain it. I have been afraid to speak about this to anyone I really know except for 3 people. But these women... I just knew. I knew without a shadow of a doubt I could speak to them and trust them immediately.

They already knew what I was just starting to realize... that there is a lot more going on in this life.

I purchased the domain for this website about a year ago. At the time I had no idea what I was going to do with it. I had coined the term 'logically free spirited' nearly 10 years ago when Instagram first came out and I had to fill in the bio. It always rang true. I am free spirited but rarely reckless. Then it occurred to me, this is exactly how I have been approaching this new experience. In an effort to ensure my sanity while also leaning into this new found... awareness, we'll call it, I have been logically free spirited.

I find comfort in learning about the science of consciousness and the effects of meditation among other things, from doctors and scientists. It helps me feel grounded and like I'm not heading out-to-lunch. And every day I am realizing that more and more people are also going through this experience, are also scared they are going insane and therefore afraid to speak to anyone else about it. Hence, logicallyfreespirited.com was finally born.

I want to create a safe space to talk through my experiences on this journey in the hopes that it may help someone, anyone, feel sane and not alone, including myself. I have so much to share and in addition to talking about my awakening - I don't know why but I currently still have a hard time with this word. The first is total wellness - physical, mental and emotional, and the second is all things beautiful; from art and design to skincare and style.

I hope to create a safe space so that you and others can share your thoughts, fears, and experiences as we all stumble through the human experience together.

Cheers to us and being logically free spirited!